FATTIE FAT FAT

So I am now home from weekend school in Sydney. I am trying really hard not to beat myself up too much. I am really disappointed at how I ate over the weekend. On Friday I was good. Saturday (which I believe I already blogged about) I had a sandwich. Sunday morning I did go out for breakfast. Across the road from the hotel where I stay is a little cafe called "Fundamental Food". $15.00 got me a "big breakfast" which was: toast, two poached eggs, two rashers of bacon, two chipolata sausages, a grilled tomato half, two little hash browns and a pile of fried mushrooms and a coffee. I immediately pushed the bread to the side (well done Mel!) and everything else, apart from the hash browns was pretty good (I loved the hash browns but they were a bit naughty). But I completely failed at uni. Because breakfast was reasonably late I didn't have lunch before lectures (started at 12pm and went through to 8pm). By one of the breaks I was STARVING and ended up eating a piece of banana bread. and later on a packet of peanut M&M's and a large hot chocolate. I felt a bit sicky after uni, went back to the hotel buy my leftover shakshouka was just not appealing so I thought I would go back to Fundamental Food for a steak but they had already closed. So I went for a walk and ended up walking right into the city before I found somewhere that I felt comfortable with (I feel a bit uncomfortable walking into places that are full of happy laughing groups of people when I am alone). It wasn't very good, but I had fried noodles with various kinds of meat and some sauce. It wasn't nice and it wasn't healthy. I did sleep well though! Monday morning I got up and went for a big walk and back to Fundamental Food only to realise that they are not open on Mondays :( I ended up having eggs benny at another cafe which was alright but not good... an english muffin and the hollandaise sauce were not very good for me. I keep trying to tell myself that it's okay, it doesn't matter, I'm back on track today, but I hopped on the scales this morning and i have gained 1.5kg :( I think this is the point where I usually give up on dieting... luckily though I like the food that I am generally eating. It doesn't help that I think I am getting sick (sore throat, congestion starting up). :(